Kay's final fanfiction

I am sorry I love you

written by Kay

Emma’s accident was so shocking to Dexter. When he arrived at the hospital and saw Emma with a breathing machine over her face, in a deep sleep inside the tiny, clean ward with a quiet atmosphere. She looked like a sleepy angel or maybe a child who needed to be protected.



“She needs to be looked after while she lives in the hospital. Accident caused her amnesia as well as some other complication.'' said the doctor.



Dexter looked after her very carefully. But she had lost her memory when she woke up.



“Who are you”? She asked Dexter who had tears in his eyes.



As Doctor said, Emma cannot remember Dexter and it's in her subconscious to not want to remember him. He is a painful memory to her so her brain in resenting the memory of him.



"I wish you still can remember me. I miss you." Dexter prayed to God in his heart.



She treated him as a stranger, and met another guy who she encountered in the hospital. They get along well and have the same interests.



Every time Dexter saw Emma having fun with another guy; when he saw her smile, laughing hard, he felt depressed and a bit empty.

Emma was very polite when Dexter stays with her in the hospital. But she would like to spend time with him; occasionally Dexter played the guitar for her as some songs that they listened together in the past. Chemotherapy caused Emma painful and torturous. Whenever Dexter saw Emma had been sent to the treatment room to do the change cure it drove him distressed. He thought about the possibility of the pain transferring to him, so he could suffer instead.



Dexter went to Emma's house and tried to find something to help Emma to recover the memories. He found her diary on her bedside table. When he started reading them, tears finally unbearable came out. All of the contents showed that Emma never stopped concern him. No matter in the period of time when she was in a relationship with the no sense of humor comedian, or the period of time when he fell in love with Jasmine who had birth the baby girl for him. No matter where she was, and how the world changed. In these 20 years, he always knew that Emma likes him, but he didn't give her enough concern, call her “best friend” to keep the relationship, when he feel confusion, from TV show reduced to waiter, indulged in drunk, drugged, he would think of Emma, but always walked away after the emotion calmed.



He remembered the night that he teasing Emma became a teacher, Emma said to him “I love you so much, but I don't like you anymore." Memories were cruel. he felt aching.



Dexter decided to continue Emma's poem. This was the only thing meaningful to Emma. He started writing poem after work every morning, and read his new poem to Emma before she slept. Emma was waiting for his new poem and curious what story he would create, and didn't go to meet with another guy again. Also she started to write diary every night.



"No matter how much pain in your heart, if with conviction, the dreams always come true." Dexter read.

“Thank you.” Emma suddenly said to him. “I lost my memories, but I know you were the most important people in my past. Thank you for the caring, thank you for staying beside of me.”

Dexter cried as a little boy, hugging tightly this girl who almost lost.



They fell in love as god granted. Dexter attempted to bring Emma to the places that they ever been. But the car accident sequelae cause her health getting worse. Sadly, the hair began to drop massively. Nonetheless she still insisted to write her dairy.



However, Emma was making great efforts to coordinate the chemotherapy. Dexter made her more reluctant to leave in this world. She wondered whether she could live longer.



“C-Could you bring me to grassland?” Emma asked hopefully. Suddenly felt painful, she started cough. She wrapped her arm around herself and tried to stop cough.

Dexter took her gently by the hand and let her to sit to the wheel chair. “Let’s go!” he took her hand and said.



Breezing was gently blowing over Emma’s face. That was a beautiful face but pale. A cut puppy was running around her and tried to jump to her arms.

“What a beautiful sunshine day.” Emma’s face was filled with happiness. “Please take a photo for me.” she took out her camera and passed to Dexter.  The sunshine beamed to her beautiful smile as no stringy.



They hugged and kissed beneath a sunshine sky. This was probably what Emma expected since 20 years ago.



Later on in the day, Emma’s pain increased. Her hair all dropped. The time was drawing near, Emma could feel it. Dexter bought her a pink wool hat,  put on her head and look at her. " umm.. very suits you, looks like a baby doll. " Dexter gently touched her hat and cracked a smile.



The doctor announced to Dexter, “It’s time to say goodbye”.



“Emma, do you want to marry me? Would you like to be my wife? ” Dexter said lightly, and tried to stop tears.

Emma nodded her head and took a deep breath, making sure her next word would be clear enough, and then spocken: “I do!”

With no wedding, no ring, but that was the most happiness time in their lives”.



Before long, Emma passed away, with happiness.



Dexter came to Emma’s grave, he brought a bunch of red rose, and a diary which belonged to Emma. He cried out in front of Emma’s grave. He opened the dairy and read them again.

“I still remember you, Dexter. I don't want to see you regret, or feel sorry for me. I want you to cheerful everyday as the first time we met. So I pretend that I don't remember you. I am very appreciating what you did to me all. Perhaps the happiness comes to us is a little bit late. But I’m lucky to become to your wife.”



Dexter didn't want to leave Emma alone. It seems cold and lonely. “I am always with you. Emma”. He lied in front of Emma’s grave and closed his eyes. No longer leave.